i like dont even know what to do with myself anymore. i feel as though everything good has gone away, just cause he left. i go out and try to get my mind off of him but it doesnt work. ill admit, we did fight alot, we had nothing in common, and we disagreed with everything but going through all that for the good times with him seemed worth it to me. he was my everything and now that hes okay without me hurts like hell. ever since 8th grade, me and him have had something with eachother and finally on the summer going into junior year we decided to try things. it was the best year of my life. but now thats over and idk what to do. it seems crazy how a now senior in highschool can lose so much just cause of one guy, but when you give everything to someone and one day they wakeup and realize that its not good enough anymore, sucks. its like im stuck here trying to save what we had.
im so lost and hurt:(
My Dearest Allie,
I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.
-Noah
(Source: thenotebookblog, via bambihamby)
